Monday, April 9, 2018

People are a-maze-ing

People, to me, are like mazes.

Although life itself can be compared to a maze, I think life is more like a game, because you have some control in a game, but not necessarily in a maze. Additionally, mazes are built by someone for someone, and I think life is something you build by yourself for yourself.

I keep my circles small; Parents and the one I love. It kindah ends there. Just three complicated mazes to run though. Perfect! Still, once you own this concept of the maze you tend to apply some logic on it. Why? Because you can think, that's why!


I think going around and exploring a maze is fun. But it always depends on a few things that are safe to know before you enter one -


You tend to find a few dusty dark corners, and if you want to try and clean them to find a way, you can go ahead any try to; Otherwise just leave it and try to find another way. Or you could just wait there, stranded in the dust and darkness, waiting for a sign or a call for help. Sometime mazes attempt to clean themselves too, you can try and help.

Used to

You don't always have to try and finish a maze. It's sometimes enough to just get used to it.


Going into a maze with someone else, depends on the "someone" you're going in with. Do they know the maze well enough, or they think they know the maze well enough? There is a difference. A significant difference that directly influences on how you proceed with the maze.


Some mazes have a lobby and then a door. You do not have access to the maze. You only chill at the lobby. Sometimes depending on the weather in the maze you are allowed inside the door, but only when you knock. So don't forget to knock. Don't break the door. Just knock. Gently. Atleast twice.

Sometimes you can also try and talk to the door before you give up on the knocking.

Used to

Sometimes there is the rare case of the maze trying to get used to you. If the maze shifts itself to allow you, it means it's ready to share the power and that it trusts you. What you do further will talk loads about what you really are, so make sure you treat the maze as your own.


Mazes have their own bots that activate during isolation. Bots are trained by the maze to clean up, but not all bots enjoy isolation. And in the end, the pathways are either more clear or more hazy.

In summary

I don't seem to be curious enough to go beyond the door. I've pushed away a lot of people who knocked and don't regret it; I did not need anyone, I still don't seem to.

It's 2018 and people seem to be very different from what they should've been like. 

People who shout that they "don't give a fuck" and "don't care", are definitely not my kinda people. Super outspoken isn't my thing either; you need to know how to talk to whom. If you think by being a "frank" person and telling every word you think and feel, you're just being a moron who does not value the other party in a "2-sided conversation". The more people like this, the simpler it gets to just put up with them and be done with, that's like being in the lobby forever.

It just gets difficult to find one goddamn person who listens to you, leave alone having a decent conversation.  
I'm 27 now and I've lost most faith in humans. I don't seek acceptance, friendship, goodness or even humanity in people anymore. I'm not even curious anymore. But sometimes, just sometimes, there's somebody who comes into vicinity, lights up a candle of humanity and leaves. But since it's a candle, it tends to die out, as time goes by.

I still haven't found any interest or reason to indulge in a friendship, or a sibling-like relationship with anyone. I've been like this forever. It breaks my mom's heart that I turned out to be this way, but again it's impossible for me to act as if I care and call or message them, when I really can't bring myself to even think about another's problem. Yes, some call this selfishness, I know.

Keeping people comfortable in their own skin is something I make sure I do, because that's the best way to deal with anyone. That's my best shot at comfortably sitting in the couch, at the lobby. I'm also sorry that I don't knock.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Mysterious Escapades

Mystery rooms and escape games are what this post is going to be about. I have been addicted to it and have finished almost all the rooms in Bangalore.

After tearing my ligament twice in 4 months, I had to give Sugar a break. I took buses and trains to go around during the long weekends, but mostly I've been throwing my money at the Escape Games here. In fact, there was even one in Coimbatore, where we won a tiny gold coin, for escaping the prison in 34 minutes without any clues. I've been playing games on my phone, like Doors, almost 3-4 years back but now these escape rooms have become a real (and a popular) thing.

What's this about? 

Mystery and Escape Rooms are game places that require you to escape a game in 45-60 minutes. In every game, you will have to solve puzzles to open a few locks and go through a set of doors and even lasers to get out. In the end, you will be escaping a prison, solving a murder mystery or even detonating a bomb.

You will have a 'game master' monitoring you and will help you in case you are stuck or doing something wrong in the game.

     You get to be the Mentalist and the Sherlock! 

This is usually a group activity, but I've been checking (almost all of) them off with just one other like mind. They do allow 2 people to take on a game of 3-4 people (under a few conditions though). I'm not very smart to have won all of them, but I've won a few and have been having fun doing it. And I'm writing this for y'all to have some fun.

Not all the providers are the same, they have different games, some might have the same name and theme, but they're still different.

They almost use the same rules though- No physical force required to look for clues, nothing on the ceiling and the fan, press the button (indicated) to call for help/clue, that (indicated) is your timer and the tv screen etc.

The games have a difficulty level which you can choose according to who is playing it with you. The 5/5 will be a bit tough for beginners, but you can always start at 3 or 4.

Here are the list and a small review of the places I've been to (in no specific order) -

1. Escape Room, Koramangala: 

It all started here, around May, and I guess they had around 4 games. We went as an office group and tried to finish all of the rooms in one day, this was sometime back and I don't have a great memory. But almost all the rooms were fun but I remember so well, the vampire room probably because it was the most fun for me.

Rating: 3.75 / 5

2. Mystery Junkies, Koramangala:

This is right across the road to the Escape room game place but seemed a bit more sophisticated and new. All the games here seemed more organized and fun somehow. This place is truly one of the best places to play escape in all of Bangalore. They have good themes and fun ways to ask for clues.

They also have a GoT themed room which does not have locks, but other fun things that open doors. After opening a lot of locks you tend to appreciate the lack of locks because it sure must have taken effort!

Rating: 4.5 / 5

3. Riddle Room, Koramangala: 

Their only room in Koramangala is best suited for 3 or more people, but we went anyway and came out a minute past the hour. The room felt a little tough as it progressed.

It was not very sophisticated but it quenched the thirst of the quest for us. They said they'll have another psycho-themed room in a few months! We're waiting for this one.

Rating: 3.5 / 5

4. Riddle Room, Sarjapur: 

This is inside the play arena and the rooms here were fun too but nothing very special about them. The plots are simple, the rooms are fun and they keep you occupied. 

Games that keep people in separate rooms are more fun to me, and the serial-killer themed game was something I'll remember this place by.

Rating: 3.5 / 5

5. Breakout, Koramangala: 

This place is different from the other game places in one way; You not only have to escape but also come up with the reason as to why and how someone got murdered and what happened to the agent that disappeared. They have 3 rooms and all 3 of them need your reasons once you escape. 

The rooms are fairly structured and fun; quite a lot of theory though.   

Rating: 3.5 / 5 

6. Mystery Rooms, Indiranagar: 

Now this too is one of the best places to play escape and all the rooms they have are fun to finish. They might seem a bit pricey but after playing their rooms, it might just seem worth it. If you escape before the hour they also honor you with a genius medal.

I enjoyed the 'Abduction' room the most, followed by 'The Hurt Locker' and the 'Kon of Kohinoor'. 'Abduction' truly induced panic and was also fun because you are handcuffed separately and in the bomb defusing game- The Hurt Locker, it feels you are really defusing a bomb. We defused it before time but they even showed us what happens if you hadn't defused it. This place is fun I tell you!

Rating: 4.5 / 5

6. The Escape Hunt, Indiranagar: 

The waiting room of this place looks pretty elegant and their games too have variety and taste. In one of the rooms, you must use more than one of your senses to solve a piece of the puzzle. 

Rating: 3.75 / 5

7. The Amazing Escape, Indiranagar: 

I think this is the only place to have the most number of games in Bangalore (7-8 game rooms). We haven't done a couple of games (Bank heist & Bomb defusal) here because it needed more than 6 people. 

The Evil Lucy is one creepy game, and it will give you goosebumps and keep the creepy feeling up for a good amount of time. If it makes you feel any better, the lights will never go ON in here. Bwahahaha! 

This place was worth it for me, because they have a lot of games and more than just locks they have other things that are fun (like a foam pit!). 

Rating: 4 / 5

8. Dare 2 Escape, AECS Layout Bangalore & Coimbatore: 

This is a good and humble place that will reward you will a tiny gold coin if you escape in time without clues. I won the coin in Coimbatore (for escaping the prison) and got a coupon and a small printed photo standee in Bangalore for participation (in the Godown abduction). It's a bit special if you're rewarded, isn't it?  

Except for the Godown game (that required more than 6 people), the other two seemed alright and escape-able. 

Rating: 3.5 / 5

9. Riddle Race, Gopalan Signature Mall, Bangalore: 

This place has a room for absolute beginners and kids! All the other 4 rooms they have are also fun and quite intense. 

They have a black and white room that felt a bit hard and lost, but the others games were the usual good fun. 

Rating: 3.75 / 5

Sunday, January 8, 2017

Questions v1.0

Why are things like this? Why are people like this? Why am I like this?

This is usually how the questions end almost every other time.

I like to live with questions. I make up questions. My questions about me, to myself. The questions I search and answer, to myself. Sometimes it's confusing, sometimes it makes no sense, sometimes it's right in front of you.

Now there are questions like this too- Why do I like this picture a lot, when my mom hates it? Which is only supposed to laughed at :D

Now as always, I try to wrap my head around one word. It could also be 'questions', you know, because we know the things we know because of the questions we have. We ask questions to get to know other people. And sometimes those people end up being our friends or better-halves. And life goes on with questions like "Shall we be friends?" or "Will you marry me?" and of sorts. Most times, some of us have only ourselves to question and it entertains us to dig out the answer.

An example- 

As always, let me quote instances here. This happened yesterday morning- "That queue sir." said the security lady in the entrance of the mall pointing to the men's queue. I reply in 2 words so she understands, "Ladies only." She smiles shyly at the mistake she realised late and lets me in. And then the questions begin-

Why did she do that? That's simple; She thought I was a guy because at first glance I do come across as a guy. Short hair, no ornaments, handbags or accessories and a dark solid-coloured tee, that's what I look like. And these quite easily mirror the looks of a common man (more than that of a woman) in our society. And once I was in terms with this thought, I checked this question out and asked the next question-

Why am I like this? Well this is simple too. Because I chose to be like this. I have short hair because I do not need long hair, it's more comfortable this way. And I definitely do not need long hair to prove my woman-ness. I wear the clothes I wear because I find them comfortable and enough. I have a waist pouch because it's simpler and makes life much easier for me.

Now do I have to change? No. Does that woman need to change? No. What do we do then? Nothing, just get used to it. And that's exactly what I decided to do. To get used to it and let people know that I am a woman, if need be.

People have asked me how to convince the brain ever since this article and this is the closest I can get to explaining how I do it. How you convince your brain, on what matter, depends totally on you.

In life...

More than those quotes and the sayings that we read on social media, these inward questions seem to do a lot of good to me. Now once I feel the peace accomplished by this, it becomes more of a habit to be questioning myself and achieving these kind of conclusions. It all seems more clearer and feels more lighter. 

Some questions in life are difficult answering, and even when you find the answer they are difficult to come to terms to. 

I'm sure my parents keep asking themselves a few questions that are difficult to answer. A few might include, "Why is my daughter like this?" and "What do I do, to find her a partner?" and "What do I answer people who ask about her marriage?" Answering to which, got out of hand earlier and still gets difficult day by day. I don't think they still have come terms to the fact that they cannot find me a partner. 

My stupid requirements only made it complicated. And now I have simplified it even more for them to understand; I have asked them to look for someone who is in peace with himself, just as how I am in peace with myself. This has eased my life, and I'm sure it has worsened theirs.


Now this does wonders I tell you. I have been trying to do this for so long and now it really seems like I have acquired this trump card. And questions helped a great deal.

I don't have a goal, neither am I waiting to know my purpose. It's only evident to me, that I am trying to make my life lighter and simpler. Sometimes to understand and achieve this, I have to convince the brain. Now convincing the mind might revert things back, because the mind is not as controlled by logic as the brain. It's difficult for the things to revert back with the brain. And over time, it has only got simpler to convince the brain with reason and logic.

For instance, today I saw him play with her cheek, in the car in front of me, in traffic, I also saw her hugging him on the bike, into his jacket's hand pockets. Now these are very normal things you see everyday in a city like Bengaluru. And there would be no reason for a very normal woman like me to not want something like that for myself.

Questions- Why would I not want that? Why do I not have that?

And answers- For me to have that I need to fall in love with someone. And life is only getting too comfortable without anybody else. To find someone who is light and comfortable with themselves does not seem very possible either, given the fact that I do not even socialize and make friends anymore.

Now this is a dead end which makes the brain to not want it.

A Lighter Life

Life gets lighter when there's little or no baggage weighing you down. When there's nothing to complain about and nothing to hold you back. When you fall asleep and wake up peacefully everyday. You do things you want to, whenever you want to. And when factors like time, money or ego aren't really baggages anymore.  

Also when there's nothing to be bored of, or be pissed about. When nothing runs in the back of your head and neither is the mind wandering around. When there seems to be an order in the chaos of your expanding universe.

Sometimes people come into your life to teach you things, sometimes you see and learn, sometimes you experience and learn from it. And people are so cool, fun, weird and crazy in their own ways. Some of them are exceptional at something already and a few keep exploring themselves to find out what they're really good at. Some are perfectionists and some really kick ass in every move.

Me on the other hand, nothing so cool about me. I have no great taste in music, know no art and no interests in sports or politics. Not exceptional at anything. I can design fairly well and I enjoy seeing myself improve at it. And all I can do is smile wide at the mirror, dance to the same old tunes in the shower and sleep like a panda. I can also roam aimlessly, kill time, eat masala dosas, idlies, cheesecakes and live without them too. And I have come to terms with this. It's perfectly alright to not be cool. And it's perfect to feel very good about it.

Frankly, it is also one of the reasons why I write. Because the thoughts are poured down in this language, where a collection of words, from my mind, here on my blog, convey some kind of a meaning to another person. It's a brilliant feeling to be able to write down what you feel and even more brilliant to have compared it to another feeling that can be experienced.

Not so brilliant to abruptly conclude though. But yes, to embrace your questions and to channel them right to get meaningful convincing-s seem like a good takeaway to end the v1.0 with.

Happy life y'all.